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The sissy dreams
Everyday I wake up in a state , halfway between a happy sissy and a closeted white boy. My mind is constantly trapped in that state. Suffering in silence, the people in my life seem to be oblivious to it, I have it well hid. 48 years of fist fights and weed, long hair and leather coats, Oilfield job... Read full Story
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Cheating Sissy Wife
My name is Ginger and my main stud is Keith, a truck driver, who is only in town once a week. We have and ongoing role-playing fantasy that we carried out whenever he was in town. I am his dutiful ideal housewife who is perfect in every way. My talents excel in both the kitchen and the bedroom. I fi... Read full Story
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Sissy gets her Prezzie
Justina woke up on Monday morning and was already tired, she had been dogging till 3 and her little ass was a little bit sore. She made her way to the bathroom and had a pee, brushed her teeth then headed for the kitchen to make coffee. As she was walking her phone went off, she had a text from ... Read full Story
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Regina's scary, and sexy Blind Date
I had just finished doing my makeup, finally deciding which blush to use, and I thought I had some time for my meditation. However, Mr. Cobb was early. The gold minidress I wore showed enough legs, ass and tits to make any man horny, and the strappy tanned five-inch sandals, made me feel majestic ... Read full Story
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2nd date with Latina Sissy Destiny
So this was my second time with Destiny, a really cool Latina CD/Sissy who had just turned 22. You might want to read my first goaround with her title, “Deflowering Latina Sissy Destiny” as it will give background and context here. After our first encounter, she signaled that she was definitely... Read full Story
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Marcia Goes Back to School
Marcia was painfully nervous. She hadn't been able to eat very much in days. The upside was she was even skinnier which would make Mistress and her husband very happy. She'd always been thin and on the diet Mistress Carol had her on she was already thinner than she dreamed possible. Her anxious stom... Read full Story
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fuck by my best friend's family
= Part 1. Alice's father = My name is Onikky 28-year-old Shemale from ASIAN, this story only shares the first experience of making love. The story begins when I first moved to a big city, looking for a new atmosphere, I don't have a place to live that I know is only my friend's name Alice who ... Read full Story
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KING OF TRANNY CHASERS ENTRY 1
IT WAS AROUND 1AM AND MY GIRL FRIEND GINA AND I ARE GOING AT IT.HER NAKED BODY WAS HANGING OFF THE BED IN DOGGY.HER BIG CARAMEL ASS CHEEKS JIGGLED AS A POUNDED FROM BEHIND. SHE WAS SCREAMING "YES BABY" AND MOANING NON STOP..AS BEAUTIFUL AS SHE LOOKED AND HOW AMAZING HER BACK SHOTS WERE LOOKING..W... Read full Story
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Sissy Maddie's New Apartment Gangbang
I’d just moved into the big city. Me on my own in a cheap apartment block. The flat was nothing special by any means, and the room next to mine seemed to be noisy with parties. But I was glad to be on my own. I had almost finished unpacking my belongings when I came across my stash of female clothi... Read full Story
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HOW MY AUNT AND SISSY NEPHEW CHANGED MY LIFE FOREVER! (fictional
It was the very first night of my month long North Carolina July summer vacation stay when my Aunt Meg suddenly entered the bedroom that I was temporarily sharing with my younger cousin Rudy. Being so openly effeminine in his body language,voice and looks, I had already planted such dirty thoughts ... Read full Story
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Sissy Slut Reunion
Rob had moved back to town and called me. He had just moved into his new place and he wanted me to come by and talk. I knew what he really wanted from the tone of his voice, because I wanted it too. He said he had been thinking and dreamed about me the whole time he was away. My spirits lifted and ... Read full Story
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Best Fuck of My Life
This is a 100% true story of the best fuck of my life. It happened almost 2 years ago. I had gotten back into dressing after a very long time. I work very hard at being as passable as possible and it really seemed to work on this particular night. Here's the story. I got all dolled up in one o... Read full Story
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From accidental trans porn addiction to a cum filled booty
One night when I was around 30 or so I was watching some porn, nothing unusual for a guy like me, aka a sex addict. Sex addiction is great if you’re Tiger Woods and swimming in poon, but for guys like me - regular, awkward, slightly handsome in a very boyish way, weirdos — it’s not that fun. We... Read full Story
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Ivana Pushing Sissy's Limits
"You look ravishing," my wife Ivana said as I stood before her in a short red velvet dress with white tights and black Blahnik mary janes heels. She walked over to put a hair band in my long black hair. It was down to my shoulders now, flat-ironed straight. We stood together in front of... Read full Story
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Hot Slutty Sissy
Hello, It’s me, and. I am about to make a big decision and right now I am dedicated to my fantasy. I got a call today from one of my ex boyfriends. I got so horny when I heard his voice that my nipples turn to steel. My titties seem to respond to the sound of his vibrating baritone. I couldn’t refu... Read full Story
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Sissy Slut and Stepdads part 2
My mother kicked Frankie out and swore that he was the last loser she would ever date. She believed that we were still having sex, and she was right. Pure raw animal lust drove us, and It was even better when we sneaked and got. That nervous adrenaline mixed with my passion and made me super horny a... Read full Story
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Lost Girlfriend Part 2
I was in a pretty pissed off mood for a few days, having just lost my latest hot Tg girlfriend, Kelli to Alesha, a well hung black Tg, and decided to go to my favorite exotic dancers club. I recently had some interesting adventures with several of the dancers, I wrote that up in a 2 part short ... Read full Story
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Being Shemale
Every night I wear make up and dress up in a sexy lingerie. I stand in my balcony late night trying to lure men and women driving on the road. Last night a truck driver stopped near my house to inspect his vehicle. During his inspection he suddenly saw a long legged booty women in the balcony inf... Read full Story
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Sissy Experience - Episode 1: The Beginning
Hello All, Hope you’re all doing well!! This story narrates the beginning of my crossdressing and sissy adventures. Before I begin I’ll tell you somethings about my family. We are a family of four consisting of me, mom, dad and an elder sister. I am currently 20 years old and in college. My da... Read full Story
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My Afternoon With Venus - Part II
My mind was still spinning from the out of this world cock sucking I'd just experienced at the expert lips of my exotic little doll as she led me by the hand into her bedroom. Her pink summer dress was draped down onto her waist so now it was only just covering her cute little derriere. As I wa... Read full Story
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DISCOVERING BLACK COCK
To the greater Boston general public it was simply a small little known quite private night club located in the back part of Roxbury called The Black Rooster Bar. While in local Gay Community circles, insiders called this private by membership only pub, THE BLACK COCK CASTLE! When first learning... Read full Story
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Roberta, Molly and Ed
Friday "Commander Cromartie?" Lt. Commander Edward Cromartie, USN, turned toward the voice that had spoken his name. He saw two female naval officers, a tall willowy light-skin Black woman, and a short Asian one. The Black one was wearing the uniform of a full commander, the Asian of... Read full Story
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The Society
I met her during the summer. I was only nineteen and working to save some money for college. I had been raised by my grandparents who had both passed away over the past year. After the burial costs I was far from wealthy. My parents weren't around so I was on my own at a young age. I had moved a cou... Read full Story
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Black Man Becomes A Sissy Maid
My name is Anderson James Crawford. I'm a big and tall young Black man living in the City of Ottawa, Province of Ontario. I presently attend Carleton University, where I'm studying Criminal Law. I originally hail from the City of Atlanta, Georgia. Yeah, there are African-Americans living in the Conf... Read full Story
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Hung Trans Lesbians Fuck Two Ladyboys
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CD and BBC Gangbang 1
My name is Mike, as a "Gurl" I go by Fiona. I am a gay man, mid thrities, white, 5' 9' 165, reasonably handsome, both in and out of women's clothes. One of the ways I express my sexuality is to dress as a woman and get fucked by other men. Preferably in a humiliati... Read full Story
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HOW ONE PEEPING TOM MORNING TURNED ME INTO A SHEMALE SISSY BITCH
It was while cutting across his back trailer park lawn around 7pm on misty July Saturday evening, when I first discovered that Mr. Parker was really a fag. How else could you describe a man wearing a long blonde wig on his head while below he wore only a large somehow stuffed pink lacey woman's bra ... Read full Story
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My Fantasy Story
My first time, Sissy Cuckold for BBC After ten years of marriage, my wife and I wanted more. First we went to some strip clubs together. One night one of the girls my wife liked told us about a swingers club. So we gave it a try. Best decision we'd ever made. We went, at first just wallflowers, ... Read full Story
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A Perfect Pandemic: A Transsexual Transition in a Troubled Time
A Perfect Pandemic A Transsexual Transition in a Troubled Time A Novelette by Alexandra Rios Text Copyright Reserved © August, 2021 Dedication Transgender Day of Remembrance is a solemn occasion. I am offering “A Perfect Pandemic” for free as an antidote to the fear, phobia, discrimination, d... Read full Story
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Sissy Femboy Chrissy in Drag at the Club
"Can you wear a dress tonight?" "I can't crossdress in public, I'm not 'out' and don't want to be seen that way." "That's okay. We're going to a gay-only club that has a drag queen show tonight, so you'd fit right in." "Cool, but I'll have to change when we get there." "Awesome! See you tonight!... Read full Story
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A Fairy Tale Part 1
=-=-Chapter One-=-= "Heather?" My boyfriend was knocking on the bathroom door. "What's wrong, are you okay? Heather?" "Yeah..." I swallowed thickly and that was a mistake. I threw up some more, kneeling on the floor, feeling like I was dying. "Heather?&q... Read full Story
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The Gang
I had always thought of myself as female in spite of the fact that I was born with male genitlia. Even in my earliest memories where I had witness sex, I identified with the female in the relationship. As a small young child, I had always longed for womanhood each time I heard a woman sing or especi... Read full Story
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Deflowering Latina Sissy Destiny
A real life story of my one and only time deflowering someone and being their first real encounter, I was 27 at the time and she was 21. I am absolutely convinced that Trans girls and CDs have a bit of a 6th sense when it comes to perceiving which guys are into them even in a public situation. I ... Read full Story
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How Kevin Became Finesse
Monica went out with JJ! He was a black buff guy who taught karate where she took the kids. He drove a yellow corvette and liked to wear shirts with the sleeves cut off - to show off his big tattooed arms! All the young blonde girls were on his jock, but he had the eyes for Monica. She kept protesti... Read full Story
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Penitentiary Pussy-Butt Boy
Hi: My name is Bobbie. Would you like me to tell you how I became a Penitentiary Pussy-Butt-Boy? Well, it all started with a robbery gone wrong. I wasn’t even in the bank when the guard got shot and I still got almost as much time as the others. So, not long after the trial I was sent to the sta... Read full Story
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A LadyBoy For My Wife
I have been happily married to my sexy Thai wife Lisa for three years now. My wife is Thai is petite (5'1") with a stunning figure, a tight ass and long waist length black hair. We had met in a bar in Thailand and subsequently we were married back here in the UK. She was very loving with m... Read full Story
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I and the old man's story 后面中文
I am from Chongqing, a boy who loves his father. When I was young, my neighbor aunt always said I looked like my sister, like a beautiful girl. At that time, my family was relatively poor. My Sister, my parents, and my family of four lived in public rental housing of less than 30 square meters. Star... Read full Story
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Would You
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A Married Marilyn
"Class is dismissed. Don't forget the project due…" "Huh, what?" Marilyn woke up disoriented from her nap. When she finally came to, she vaguely remembered some project for Intro to Computer Science, gathered her legs from the chairs in front of her, dusted off her b... Read full Story
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Property To Be Pimped
It had been weeks since I'd brought to light my idea of my wife, Suzie, strapping on a big dildo and taking me dressed as Desiree, the Hot to Trot Transvestite. While at first she teased me with possible participation, it never came to be, despite me bringing it up on several occasions. She really d... Read full Story
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It was my first time
So I met this trans girl thru backpage & her pics were above average so I decided to go for it. I set up meeting, drove out to hotel, knocked on door, she let me in & we stood there looking at each other. She was a mixture of Asian & Hispanic. Pretty nice tits, long legs & didn't look like much fat ... Read full Story
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Duel With the Devil, Chapter 20 of The Greatest Liar
Duel With The Devil This is a work of fiction. All characters (including the narrator), celebrities, places, residences, neighborhoods, restaurants, legal agreements and proceedings, events and incidents are either the products of the author's imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any r... Read full Story
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Black Transsexual Power Games
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Don't Avoid Daddy
It feels like I haven't been used in ages. I'm too much of a scared sissy. I find guys from all over, talk, email, text sometimes. But when it really comes down to it I get too scared. I've been with this guy before, his cock is soda can thick and he's really rough. The day after my first encounter ... Read full Story
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My Brother and I.
HI, I am Farzana,(have set my name recently,before that my name was Raja). I am Bangladeshi. I have been leaving with my family.Now I live with my Dad only.Some times, He invite his friends also. I will tell You about this later. I am 27 years old.The story I am sharing with You is about ...14 year... Read full Story
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You Just Don't Care...
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Down the Path Part 4
I haven't heard from anyone all week. Finally feeling like I can relax a little. The weekend was too much. I didn't feel right for at least a couple days afterward. I just kept thinking about the stuff I had done. I can't believe that I finally really sucked a cock and not just a cock but several co... Read full Story
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Pune crossdresser Night Girl
Hi friends, I hope you liked my earlier stories. This is my new story about a lady boy / crossdresser / sissy boy. Around 2 years back I came across a profile on Planet Romeo with name Nightgirl. I sent her message that i found her sexy and attracted to her and wanna meet her. I am alway... Read full Story
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They Were Right
They were my friends, but I'd had sex with both of them. Not at the same time, but I had dated the one for a month and just started dating the other. So, although the thought had never crossed my mind before, I found myself dressed up as a girl for Halloween. After we had partied at a few clubs and ... Read full Story
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MY First Time with a non-binary/cross-dresser
After I had graduated high school but before I had left for college: I was hanging out with a friend and a friend of theirs at their friend’s house. For the story let’s call my friend Dan and his friend Charles. We were watching some movie on Charle’s (parent’s) big TV. Charles gets up eventually an... Read full Story
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Headmistress' Favorite Sport Part 3
There was no more time for Denise and Susanna to get over their chemically induced bout of incestuous activity as Denise was being sent to school. This was of course part of the plan. Slaves should always feel guilty about something and once their slave training was over, neither would be able to ma... Read full Story
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Debbie Part 8
Moira sat in her booth at the entrance to the subway station and saw people pass by. She sat there every day selling tickets, and although several thousand people passed her during a shift, she could now recognize many of the regulars and she even knew when to expect them. It was now almost 9 o'cloc... Read full Story
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Francis Meets a Black Stud Part 2
The first story was easy and this one went by pretty well. If you have any thoughts or suggestions for where Francis should go in installment #3 email me. I will respond to your email and sometimes I will send out previews of what I am working on if you treat me right. Thanks. As I was walking to... Read full Story
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He Could Have R*ped Me!
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Uncle sweet Lover
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Permanent Stay in Mastersville Part 4
My training was now reaching full speed and I was handling the maid's duties in the house, while at the same time spending a lot of time with sex training. Diane, on the other hand, was clearly reaching the end of her stay with Mistress. It was quit clear that a buyer would soon be found for her and... Read full Story
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