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HOW ONE PEEPING TOM MORNING TURNED ME INTO A SHEMALE SISSY BITCH
It was while cutting across his back trailer park lawn around 7pm on misty July Saturday evening, when I first discovered that Mr. Parker was really a fag. How else could you describe a man wearing a long blonde wig on his head while below he wore only a large somehow stuffed pink lacey woman's bra ... Read full Story
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My first BBC experience
I stand 5 foot 8 and weigh 138 lbs. With a perky butt, long natural eye lashes, and clear smooth white skin I would always receive comments from women how jealous they were of my features but never did they want to pursue an intimate relationship with me. But I also didnt have much interest in them ... Read full Story
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The Making of A Sissy Part 10
Bella quickly gulped down her vodka and cherry, her bottom tingling with anticipation as her new mature friend gave her a commanding look; she had so enjoyed being submissive for her at the end of a leash, and now she knew she would be bound tightly on a soft inviting bed, and made completely helple... Read full Story
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How I Became Chrissy the Caged Sissy
I am a sissy, or femboy, or tgurl, or shemale? Well either way I like wearing female clothes and being treated like a girl, especially in the bedroom, and now I also like being locked up in a chastity cage that I wear 24/7 now. This is the story of how I became a caged sissy: "Put it on and ... Read full Story
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Ladyboy dominatrix
If you read my other stories you know I'm intersexed and I was a ladyboy prostitute when I was um, very young. I don't condone such activities. They were sick perverts who used me. True I got a lot of money and expensive gifts but that doesn't make it right. They should all be castrated. Th... Read full Story
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Looking-Glass Ladyboy
I was taking a walk to stay--all right; I'll admit it--to get in shape, when I saw the "Going Out of Business" sign in the second-hand furniture store a block north of my condo. I wasn't in the market for anything, new or used, but I can't resist a bargain, and what was better for finding ... Read full Story
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Sissy Experience - Episode 1: The Beginning
Hello All, Hope you’re all doing well!! This story narrates the beginning of my crossdressing and sissy adventures. Before I begin I’ll tell you somethings about my family. We are a family of four consisting of me, mom, dad and an elder sister. I am currently 20 years old and in college. My da... Read full Story
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Sissy Slut Reunion
Rob had moved back to town and called me. He had just moved into his new place and he wanted me to come by and talk. I knew what he really wanted from the tone of his voice, because I wanted it too. He said he had been thinking and dreamed about me the whole time he was away. My spirits lifted and ... Read full Story
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Birth of a New Sissy Part 1 Encounter
I met Jeff one day at the nearby tennis courts. I could never have imagined what the result of that meeting would be. I suppose I should tell you a bit about me. I'm a happily married 34 year old. About average in most respects. A little spare tire trying to form around the middle but in decent ... Read full Story
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Weekend Fantasy
have so many fantasies....the one that gets me lately, is having access to a house out in the middle of nowhere, for a week or weekend, where i can dress up, all day. No one knows of my lustful secret....so the idea of being able to stay this way without thought, gets me so hard and such in the moo... Read full Story
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Cheating Sissy Wife chapter2
My sweetheart Keith is back from his road trip and we were about to make up for lost time. He didn’t even want me to fix dinner. Instead he said that we would order pizza later. Meanwhile we started making out right there on the couch. We were both horny and anxious to get next to each other. I felt... Read full Story
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Camming Down the Rabbit Hole Ch. 10
As the sun beamed in through a gap in the curtains my now familiar morning wood strained at the silk of my nightwear. How was it that no matter how hard I came the night before it would wake up eager and ready to go. As had become customary my mind would be filled with the events of the previous nig... Read full Story
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Camming Down the Rabbit Hole Ch. 12
We woke up many hours later, still intertwined, my morning wood throbbing as Ellie slid inside my panties and wrapped her hand around it. This was a much better way to wake up than usual, and we proceeded to have a really relaxed slow fuck. She reached a much more low key orgasm but I knew I wouldn’... Read full Story
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Young Sissy Chapter 1
I don't know how long I was under...days, weeks...who knows, maybe even months. Reality blurred with nightmares as I felt my flesh being cut into by cold scalpels and stuck with needles, filling me with horribly persuasive dreams of a beautiful new body. I tried to imagine myself as a man, just to s... Read full Story
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Ladyboy Switch Story
I am messed up with how I feel about this. I still love looking at women. I love tits and arse. I like the soft feel of women – kissing them and feeling their bodies. I don’t look at men in public and get turned on – men with clothes on do nothing for me. Put me somewhere that I can see those same m... Read full Story
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My story, more or less pt.3
Earlier on, when I was scouring through various drawers and closets for feminine clothes in my home I have stumbled upon two old skipping ropes. "A fun time" I thought to myself, not giving them another look and continuing with my search. Little did I know they would become the backbone of my "sessi... Read full Story
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HOW MY AUNT AND SISSY NEPHEW CHANGED MY LIFE FOREVER! (fictional
It was the very first night of my month long North Carolina July summer vacation stay when my Aunt Meg suddenly entered the bedroom that I was temporarily sharing with my younger cousin Rudy. Being so openly effeminine in his body language,voice and looks, I had already planted such dirty thoughts ... Read full Story
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My First Blowjob
Fuck! I'm so jealous! Back in my teens I could self suck! I'd lock myself in the bathroom, lay on my back and bring my legs over top. I was able to not only get the head of my.cock in my mouth, but half of my length as well. The first time I nutted in my own mouth, I wasn't prepared for the big lo... Read full Story
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Dating my Sissy-sister (English)
You are wearing women's stockings and a thigh-high transparent top, the thin shoulder straps of which leave your arms and shoulders elegantly exposed! You're the real lil bunny to me in that girl outfit of yours... How about, should I teach the little one about the naughty girl? You're giggling a... Read full Story
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My sissy experience
I guess you could call me a sissy, maybe even a whore but one things for sure... I love cock. So my story begins as a young teenage boy, curious like most. I would raid my sisters panty drawer for the excitement of trying on her sexy lingerie. It became an addiction, I couldn't help but want mo... Read full Story
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Slutty Sissy's 2 Loves
Tonight was young and I was already hot and bothered, my ass-pussy was on fire, and I could hardly wait for Bob and John to come over. I had invited them over to fulfill those erotic dreams I am constantly having about the two of them using me like a tool, and I wanted that so bad. I fantasized abou... Read full Story
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2nd date with Latina Sissy Destiny
So this was my second time with Destiny, a really cool Latina CD/Sissy who had just turned 22. You might want to read my first goaround with her title, “Deflowering Latina Sissy Destiny” as it will give background and context here. After our first encounter, she signaled that she was definitely... Read full Story
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Sissy and Horses
The scariest and best day in my sissy life, was when I was put in a box, tied up, an anal plug in my mouth and a huge bbc dildo in my ass. I was put in the box by my BBC master, who promised me a day of surprises.... I stayed in the box for some hours, my ass hurts of the giant bbc dildo, my mouth ... Read full Story
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Sissy Femboy Chrissy in Drag 2: At the Apartment
This is Part 2 to the article I wrote called "Sissy Femboy Chrissy in Drag at the Club." In that story I explained how I am 41 but look, feel and sound younger, that I shave myself smooth and like dressing in gurly panties and other female clothes to be a sissy femboy for older guys. A guy I met on ... Read full Story
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Sissy Slut: Gang Favored
I confess I am a nymphomaniac shemale slut who loves being the object of a man’s desires. That's why I was out here with these hookers trying to hook up with somebody to have sex. I'm either having sex or I'm thinking about having sex most of the time I like being a honey. I love having sex with men... Read full Story
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Sissy Femboy Chrissy in Drag at the Club
"Can you wear a dress tonight?" "I can't crossdress in public, I'm not 'out' and don't want to be seen that way." "That's okay. We're going to a gay-only club that has a drag queen show tonight, so you'd fit right in." "Cool, but I'll have to change when we get there." "Awesome! See you tonight!... Read full Story
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Camming Down the Rabbit Hole Ch. 09
As per my previous mornings recently, I stirred and rubbed the sleep from my eyes, that delicious feeling of my silk night ware stretching over my taught nipples and my morning wood throbbing in its lace enclosure. The urge to touch myself was palpable, it seemed no matter how hard I came the night ... Read full Story
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A Sissy (S)exercise Fantasy
I stopped going to the gym about six months ago, when money got tight and I had to find ways to reduce my expenses. I usually don't get to the gym much in the spring or summer months anyway, so it was an easy expense to cut. I hate going into the office all sweaty, so I avoid working out in the morn... Read full Story
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Catching up with the biggest cock
I have recently written with an account from my diary about the biggest cock that I’ve ever seen and someone saw the experience and wanted to know more as I had said that I met him a few times. So, I can bring that right up to date now because I have recently been to see him again. But let me go bac... Read full Story
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bi to sissy caught and turned
It was during a Wednesday nite supper this past April when Penny my wife of seven years, suddenly looked me straight in the eyes while calling me a GAY COCKSUCKER ! Instantly while I swallowed hard and quickly looked away from her, my worse dreaded fears in life had somehow just become reality! So ... Read full Story
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My story, more or less pt.2
So there I was, a boy with a desire. (Refer to pt.1 for context) A few months went by from the "initiation" and I've progressed quite a bit I have switched from shemale porn to femboy porn, to relate to the main characters more. I have also scoured every closet in desperate search f... Read full Story
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Birth of a New Sissy Part 3 Completion
I suppose at some level I knew it would happen. Or at least I should have. After nearly a month of servicing Jeff's cock and fucking myself silly on my dildo lover things took a turn. I came home from work a little early on a day Laura was off as well. When I got home she was out, but as soon ... Read full Story
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Proud To Be A Sissy Chapter 8
I woke up to hear daddy lightly snoring and in my sleep I had draped a leg over him so that my body was almost covering him. I giggled to myself realizing that even in my sleep the sissy slut in me reached to grasp his flaccid penis. Then I curled closer up against daddy and contemplated about how m... Read full Story
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Cheating Sissy Wife
My name is Ginger and my main stud is Keith, a truck driver, who is only in town once a week. We have and ongoing role-playing fantasy that we carried out whenever he was in town. I am his dutiful ideal housewife who is perfect in every way. My talents excel in both the kitchen and the bedroom. I fi... Read full Story
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Birthday Present Part 1
Birthday Present or (I've Looked at Love from Both Sides Now) Chapter 1 "What would you like for your birthday?" my wife asked. "An unforgettable sex session" I answered, jesting. "Is that right? Well, we'll see" came the reply. I forgot all abo... Read full Story
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la storia di Sara
Erano alcune settimane che ciattavo con Sara, una trans bolognese conosciuta per caso in internet. Di Sara ho visto solo il bel viso molto femminile con lunghi capelli biondi ed il suo meraviglioso seno. Una sera stavamo parlando e lei mi disse " alcuni mesi fa mi sono rifatta il seno, ho conosciut... Read full Story
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I Give Up
The following story is the first of four parts of a tale that explores the theme of transformation. It is thematically similar others that I have submitted but has a larger narrative arc. I hope you enjoy reading the first portion, Act One & Two. I continue to work on better editing and someone h... Read full Story
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Becoming a Drag Queen
I was thrilled when my boss told me he was sending me to San Francisco for a conference. It was a location on my "Top 10 places I wanted to go". I went online and Googled the major attractions and tourist "must sees in San Francisco. The conference was Wednesday to Friday and I figure... Read full Story
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janine 2
After my epiphany, after my fainting, after my two near consecutive, mind melting orgasms, I was ready to meet the world with new resolve. No longer would I keep my true self under wrap. I was ready to become Janine, however I was going to have to be cautious, for the time being anyway. The first th... Read full Story
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Beryl's birthday suit
I tried on my sister's panties when I was 12. They looked so cute, so sexy.. I couldn't help myself. I tucked my dick between my legs and pulled them over my hips, delicately positioning them just like a girl. They felt yummy! When I saw the shiny, lacy pink briefs in the mirror - snug, flat pu... Read full Story
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Very Impatient on a sex fanstay
Are you ready for this Mish?" "Not really but it's too late to back out now." I stood in a dark alley before a metal door shaking with both anxiety and the cold, waiting for the door slot to open and for the night to begin. I wouldn't admit it to my friend Simone but secretly I hoped we would ... Read full Story
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Sissify Your Boyfriend Manual - transation
original= manual-sissificar-a-tu-novio-4979 Used google translate, found some pronoun/object/context issues, and I believe ladybug = ladyboy Sissify Your Boyfriend Manual MANUAL FOR WIFE/GIRLFRIEND TO SISSIFY YOUR MAN, DISCOVER HIS SUBMISSIVE SIDE AND TURN HIM INTO ?HORNAND? AN... Read full Story
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My Fantasie: I am a sissy slutty stripper
My favorite fantasie: I am myself but with a feminine body, but with my cock and with real breasts and a pussie, dressed in heels with lacy anklets, white hose and garter belt, white high-cut lacy panties, white lacy bra with nipples exposed, pageboy short blonde haircut, rhinestone necklace/br... Read full Story
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Anastasia's Life
Chapter 1: Humbling Beginnings My story starts where most every crossdresser's story starts. It starts somewhere around the time I was an infant. I can remember, not to mention being told several thousand times that my choice of toys as a child was dolls, strollers, dress up and tea parties, Barb... Read full Story
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My Brother's Panties
My brother and I are twins, fraternal not identical. Throughout our lives, no one ever confused us, and furthermore, no one ever thought we were siblings. Growing up I would often get the question, "Kevin, why do you hang out with Jamie so much?" People were always surprised when they lear... Read full Story
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A hole new world unfolding before my eyes.
When i was still a little boy, i was always surrounded by women, i was raised mostly by them, so i always was in touch with that feminine side of mine. In addition my sexual desires and cravings developed actually kinda fast. I remember loving the feeling of watching my mom's wardrobe specially her ... Read full Story
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Tara's Adventures
Part 1 I had met them on line. Marla 1st then her owner Mistress Olivia. We chatted for well over a year and had met for drinks. They knew of my submissive fem side and we had planned meetings on several occasions but things always developed that upset them. Then a period of time developed whe... Read full Story
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Slut indiscretion
At 17, I had reputation among the people in my world. I had sucked more dicks than the average hooker. I had slept with men of every race creed and color. You can even throw in a mentally challenged lad or and autistic child as well. All because I loved getting sex. I think that a penis is the sexi... Read full Story
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Learning how to deep throat Part 2
Looking up at me from her kneeling position she said 'you aren't to let me choke my self on your cock, but you get the idea.' She stood up, I knelt down, she reminded 'make a fist with your thumb inside and squeeze tight, you will be able to take my cock in you mouth and possible your throat. I f... Read full Story
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Would You
'Would you...?' 'Look the part to play the part....' 1 5' 4...dreaded, and to be dreaded....bookish, be-spectacled—damn near owlish....so much so that you might miss the way her tits spoke to you no matter how much she attempted to 'silence' them ....that you might miss the way her sk... Read full Story
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Me and 2 black men
Hello again this is EvA…I am a 40 year old tranny. I do not consider my self a crossdresser anymore, because I am doing that for so long that I have been transformed to a very sexy and feminine ladyboy. I have been taking also hormones for 4 years, on and off and I already saw many changes&he... Read full Story
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Karen, My School Teacher Part 4
Meeting my other teacher By FoxyHosed Next morning as I woke up, I jumped in my clothes and got myself a coffee, and went to school. I got in 15 minutes early because I didn't want to run into Karen. As I entered the door to the school, I saw some of my classmates. I thought the coast was clea... Read full Story
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Hung Trans Lesbians Fuck Two Ladyboys
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Discovering Amber Chapter 3
There have been very few times in my life I have been terrified and today was definitely the tops on that list. Ms drove us to the mall and as I watched she walked around the front of the car and opened the door for me. I looked up to see her hand extended toward me. "Practice getting out li... Read full Story
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I Fooled Everyone But the Black Pimp Part 1
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Sexual fantasies on tiptoes
Sexual Fantasy on tiptoes when I was a teenager, I began to like live female gymnastics and ballet, and I had a good feeling about the posture of women straightening their toes and leaning their heads back, my intuition tells me that this is what happens when a woman has an orgasm, and as an adult I... Read full Story
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